all work and no play...

I’m completely exhausted.  I don’t think that I’ve been this mentally worn-out since back in my dark days of engineering.

I blame Party Poker.  Every now and then, they send me an email, offering me some sort of a monetary bonus if I generate a specific amount of revenue for them.  When they sent me the email on November 15th, I looked at it and laughed.  It was just ridiculous.  I even sent them a reply telling them that they might as well not make offers to me that were impossible to fulfill.  They chose not to respond.

So the other day, I was looking at how much I had played, and I realized that I was actually fairly close to fulfilling the offer.  If I played 20 hours of poker before midnight on Nov. 30, I would get the bonus.  

Yesterday and today, I played for a total of 20 hours.

Now 20 hours of work might not seem like a lot to you guys.  A lot of people can easily work 10 hours a day.  I usually try to put in 4 hours.  If I work 5 hours, my brain feels like it’s been put in a blender.

It’s because when I play online, I play 8 tables at a time.  I see over 400 hands of poker per hour… and it’s not something that I can half-ass, or I end up losing a lot of money.  It’s this very high-intensity stressful thing that I voluntarily subject myself to every time I work.  I just can’t maintain that level of focus for a long period of time.

(In further defense of my work-ethic, 4 hours of work for me equates to 32 table-hours…. 30 hours/week of work ends up being 240 table-hours… There aren’t too many people out there that work much more than 200 hours a week…. even the most unethical lawyers keep their billable hours less than that!!)

I’m not sure what I was thinking when I decided to “go for it”… I just hope that I don’t ever decide to do this to myself again.

I need a vacation.